Wednesday, May 12, 2010

A Thought for the Day

Getting there is hard-going back is easy. I have been thinking about this for a while now. Gettiing there, meaning my goal weight, is hard. Very hard. I have had to make some serious lifestyle changes and break some very old habits. Going back, meaning back to my old chubby self, would be easy. Very easy. I mean seriously, I could eat like there is no tomorrow. Not give a thought what I put in my mouth. Believe me, I think about this all the time.

But there is NO going back. I don't ever want to be that person again. I realize now that I don't think I really liked myself much. Slowly, but surely, I am starting to like myself again. I can try on clothes now and actually look at myself. WOW! I still don't necessarily like what I see, but at least I will look at myself in the mirror.

I do still see myself as 51.6 pounds heavier. Did I just say that? That's it, 51.6 pounds, my total lost to date. Twenty more to go. I saw a picture of myself that my daughter took of me last week. Is that really me?
This is one of my ex-foster dogs Dave. He got adopted in February. He lived with us for 9 months and I do miss him. It was good to see him again. Someone came up to me and said "have you lost an obscene amount of weight?" Why yes, I guess that's what you could call it! Obscene.

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