But there is NO going back. I don't ever want to be that person again. I realize now that I don't think I really liked myself much. Slowly, but surely, I am starting to like myself again. I can try on clothes now and actually look at myself. WOW! I still don't necessarily like what I see, but at least I will look at myself in the mirror.
I do still see myself as 51.6 pounds heavier. Did I just say that? That's it, 51.6 pounds, my total lost to date. Twenty more to go. I saw a picture of myself that my daughter took of me last week. Is that really me?
This is one of my ex-foster dogs Dave. He got adopted in February. He lived with us for 9 months and I do miss him. It was good to see him again. Someone came up to me and said "have you lost an obscene amount of weight?" Why yes, I guess that's what you could call it! Obscene.